Well, its been quite some time since I last sat down to write. Every so often I will get a pull, an inner tug to sit quiet and let out these thoughts and feelings that swirl around within my soul...and so many times I have shushed myself and become aware of the fact that there are about 1 million other things that I could do instead. I think its time for me to redefine "productive" and remember that nurturing my inner self, and sharing what is on my heart with this world is much more important than catching up on laundry, sifting through junk mail, or cleaning up the evidence that our 2 year old son has tried to cover every square inch of the house with his toys! Its time to get back to the essence of life, to break down the walls that separate us from one another, and to truly begin to uncover the truth that we already know about this gift we have been given.
We are all on a journey, we are all given a finite amount of time to experience life in all its wonderful, mysterious, unexpected twists and turns. We come into this world with such curiosity and innocence, full of wonder and appreciation for the simple delights of this Universe. We were not afraid of the mess, in fact, we embrace it. Somewhere along the way, we are told what is acceptable, and what is not. We are completely bombarded with images, visions, rules, social or otherwise, that pigeon hole what the proper life should look like. Its bleached, ironed and folded into a neat little pile of life experiences that are "acceptable", and we are left trying to become someone we are not. Wondering why we don't fit the mould...
What if the dirt, and messes of life are actually the places we need to rediscover with the same wonder we had when we were children. What if the rain, the tears or the losses in life are all part of the total package that are the only doors to which we can walk through to find our truest selves...our life's purpose? What if the very act of trying to walk around or underneath life's challenges is the answer for the dull ache so many people feel deep within their soul that they just can't seem to put their finger on?
The more I end up going through in this life, the more the silver lining, the blessing behind the pain illuminates itself more clearly, more vividly. Sometimes the blessing underneath all the messes of life shine so brightly within us that we begin to truly see what is more valuable and true within ourselves. We begin to develop true confidence and certainty that ALL things work together for our highest good.
This is when fear dissolves, and we begin to dance in the rain...not afraid of what lurks around the next corner. Because we know that no matter what happens, everything will work out the way its supposed to. I have come to know myself, that this way of living is so much more fulfilling and truly more FUN!! So let's get back to getting messy, and playing in the dirt!
